The Ultimate Bitch Dream

I rarely remember my dreams, but I definitely remember this dream from last night because I was so bitchy and mean in it. Everyone knows I love my truck and quite protective of it and it has been in the shop since Monday so I’m frustrated that I haven’t been able to drive let alone leave the house very much without my own transportation. It’s driving me nuts.

I was out with the girls and it was time to leave and I was driving Steph home. That’s something that is not unusual. I get out to the parking lot at Shenanigans and I notice that the gate is down and there are beer cans and junk all up in the bed of the truck. I’m pissed off about it because I did not know who did it. As I get into the truck I notice two big bottles of beer — the 82 ounce bottles that Billy Frogs sell are on top of my hood and this just sets me off. I told Steph to get out of the truck grab them and put them on the ground behind my back tires. She didn’t want to, but I was not in the mood for arguing and I just snapped at her and said DO IT or you are walking home! She gets out and puts the bottles behind the tires and I just gun and run the bottles over. Did I mention — both were full? It made me feel better to break em and I didn’t care who they belonged to. I just wanted to leave.

Steph gets back in the truck with a beer in her hand and what does she do? She spills it all over the seat. Oh I was pissed. Too pissed to drive. I got out, Steph got out and I said leave the windows open, we have to air the truck out. I’ll pick it up tomorrow and if it still smells like beer in the morning you are paying to have my entire truck shampooed. She was drunk and totally agreed to paying for it since she spilled the beer.

As we are heading back into the bar the guys who left their 82 ouncers on my truck came back and were wondering what the hell happened to their bottles? I flat out told them I broke them. They were pissed and wanting to know why I broke them. I told them my truck is not a table for their beer and I told them if when I inspect the truck in the morning and there are any scratches or damage done to the truck that I would come find them and personally kick their ass in some way. They looked scared and it didn’t even dawn on me if they were cute or not. I guess when I am pissed — it does not matter.

Next thing I know it is morning and I am out with Steph for breakfast with my dad and Steph is wondering how we got there. I am still fuming from the night before. I mention to Steph that we have to go pick up the truck and I said to her if it smells like beer at all that she needs to get her money out because we are going to go get it shampooed ASAP. She asked why she had to pay and I told her she was the one the spilled beer all over it — she needs to pay. She put on a pouty face and said she did not have any money to shampoo the truck and I said she better find some and quick because it was no ones fault but her own.

Then I woke up. I have never been that bitchy to my friends — EVER. I know this dream is a sign of me just wanting my truck back! I haven’t seen Steph in a while either — been to sick to see anyone. I hope I am never that bitchy in real life. That was strange to see to say the least. If I have deja vu in the future — I’ll know this post is here.

One Week Left

I have one week left in my eight week spinal cord exercise workout study. I have seen tremendous progress on the FES bike, especially this last week. I can now power it on my own with the electrodes and my muscles well over 35 minutes. I could go longer, but there are other people there to use the bike. I think taping the bottom electrodes has made that connection a little stronger so I can go longer.

It is not that we cannot use the bike once the program is over, it is the fact that they are more than likely going to charge 25 bucks a session to use it. That seems awfully high for a price, but it is what they charge in California to use the bike. I can join a gym for an entire month and use it everyday for less than 25 bucks. The bike is wonderful, but I think after we are done with the study it is going to be collecting a lot of dust. He said one of his patients got it approved through insurance to use it seven times and that’s some, but not a lot and other than it being good for me, I have no reason for insurance to approve, but I will check with them anyway, just in case. I really don’t want to stop using the FES bike, but I fear next week might be the last time I use it.

I love swimming and I know I can get that approved and I’m pretty good in the water as is that my parents could most likely help me if do join the Wellness Center when my dad retires. I an float, I can stand in the water weighted down, both arms and legs which is really good for testing my balance. The water is so warm I do not want to get out. If I could I would stay in there all day.

Standing never really improved. My blood pressure continue to tank and I never really got much longer than a minute in moving my arms when I got up. The only thing that has improved is when I do go up, it doesn’t feel like an elephant is sitting on my chest anymore. I’m hoping that means some of those muscles in my diaphragm are getting better.

I so wish this study was longer. My PT is still pursuing grant money to open an accessible gym and hopefully by next fall. The Wellness Center staff is coming out next week to go over equipment they have to see if we can utilize it, but I have been there and all they have is free weights, a pull down bar, and a track that is wheelchair accessible. I can do most of that at home.

It was a good pilot study and I hope my PT gets the results he wanted out of it to take to the board and get his gym open. That would be ideal.

Garlic Cheese Tacos

I am a genius. Most know me as a picky eater, but sometimes I break out of that role and try something knew. There wasn’t much for lunch today, but there were soft taco shells and shredded cheese in the fridge.

One of my favorite things to eat when we have tacos is a cheese taco which is a shell, a little bit of sour cream, and shredded cheese nuked in the microwave for 45 seconds. I eat it for lunch or dinner sometimes — they are so yummy. We try to keep shells and cheese in the fridge for a quick meal for me. You can’t go wrong with it.

Today I decided to change up my standard cheese taco because we were out of sour cream so I added mozzarella to the shredded mild cheddar cheese and that was pretty good. For my second cheese taco today I added garlic powder to the cheese and oh my gosh, it was DE-LIC-OUS!

The one thing about a cheese taco is you really can’t mess them up. When my dad was buying shells one night at Taco Johns (did you know you can buy hard and soft shells to take home for your own tacos — best shells in town) he told the worker that his daughter loves to eat cheese tacos. She said a lot of kids like that and she told him peanut butter and jelly is good in them too. He failed to mention that I was 30 years old. Ha!

So next time when you want something warm and yummy to eat and quick to fix for yourself or the kids, try a cheese taco any way you want. They are one of my favorite foods.

Polished

I haven’t painted my nails in years, but decided to do so for Halloween last night. I bought a bottle of Wet N’ Wild (it’s cheap) and it has a little bit of sparkle to it and it is a dark purple/red almost black color. I know the dark colors are in this year, but though my mother said they looked really pretty — I am having a hard time getting used to nail polish being on my hands. I can’t take it off either as there is no finger nail polish remover in the house so I am taking it as a sign that I should leave it on.

I used to paint my nails ALL the time in high school. Like nightly. I would change colors and wear extreme colors from silver to bright blue. I stopped painting them because frankly I just did not have the time to do it and I have gorgeous long nails that they look fine with no polish. Occasionally I will apply a clear coat for a special occasion, but even then I do not put in the effort.

I did not do a very good job of painting my nails last night, but after picking at the mistakes they look like I did a good job. A few nails bubbled which pissed me off and it is bugging me, but I am not going to redo them as I highly doubt too many people will be paying that close attention to my nails to notice the bubbles. Did I mention that it is really bugging me?

I’ll eventually go out to the store and get some nail polish remover because once this polish chips on just one nail that will drive me insane. I have small OCD issues when it comes to nail polish chipping and the main reason I painted my nails nightly in high school and the main reason I stopped painting them.

I’ll try and enjoy them painted for the next day or two, possibly three, but I think that will be after that. Props to those that have the patience for painted nails. I, however do not. Happy Halloween!

Kickin it in KC Part II

I got up earlier than I thought I would with a sore throat and back. The beds had some sort of soft lining under the fitted sheet which I am not used to since I sleep on a hard mattress so my back HURT! I believe my voice was sore from all the yelling and singing from the night before. The sore throat didn’t last very long. I was not hungover by any means which was good for me and the football game.

We left the hotel at 10 to headed to the game. Our hotel was roughly 6 miles from the hotel and it took us over TWO hours to get to Arrowhead Stadium. We missed the opening kickoff, but got there just in time. Our seats were good, but it was SOOOOO cold. I don’t think it hit 40 degrees. I was bundled up in multiple layers and still could not get warm after a hot dog and some hot chocolate. With the game tied in the 3rd quarter I finally threw in the towel and said I am too cold, lets go home.

We planned on leaving early anyway to beat the traffic since it has ONE lane to get in and out of that place, but was not planning on leaving that early. I mean really — how can you have an 80,000 seat stadium and have ONE way to get into it. That is just insane!

I was quite surprised that there were just as many Cowboys fans as there were Chiefs fans at the game. At times we were louder than the Chiefs fans and you could really hear how loud we were when Austin caught the game winning TD in over time.

I listened to the rest of the game on the radio and heard Miles Austin LITERALLY have probably the best game of his career and he has many years to go. I wish I could have seen it, but it’s on NFL Replay. I can’t be that cold. I did not want to get sick and I was just miserable. Props to the people that can survive the cold — I am not one of those people.

We made it home just as it was starting to snow. I’m glad we left when we did. We did not want to drive in snow if we didn’t have to. We got home at 9 PM. If we had waited til the game was over it would have been closer to midnight, 1 AM which would not have been fun.

All and all was an awesome trip. I have decided to change my goal of seeing every football stadium in the United States to seeing every stadium that has a dome, a retractable roof, or the team lives in an extremely warm climate like Miami or Phoenix. No way in hell am I sitting outside in October EVER again! Fuck that shit!

Kickin it in KC Part I

I had the most amazing time in my short two days in Kansas City. At first it was to go see MY Cowboys play the Chiefs, but in turned into more of I want to see Carrie more than the Cowboys. We have been counting down the weeks and days until this fantastic weekend. I’ve been hearing about the Power and Light bar area for quite some time from Carrie and was really looking forward to seeing it.

Made plans to meet with Carrie at 7 and went down to the lobby when she texted me she was there. I could not wait to see her. Dad could see her coming through the sky walk — she couldn’t get down the elevator fast enough. We hugged and chatted, got introduced to Justin and left shortly after to find some place to eat.  As we are looking for an accessible entrance we run into two guys, one bent over while the other guy is holding him up while his friend pukes his guts out in one of the beautiful planters they have up and down the sidewalk. We found a burger place to eat at, but I was far too excited to eat very much.

Took in the scenery that was the P&L District and thought it was very cool. Our first and only bar was PBR where one of Carrie’s Boy Toy’s works. That was my nickname for him. At first it wasn’t that busy and we could actually hear each other talk, but about an hour later we were shouting at each other just to hear each other. Aaron arrived shortly after it started to get busy and he is just oh so sweet as is Justin. PBR was awesome even without a working mechanical bull. We drank, we sang, and danced all night long. 

I met an extremely HOTTT guy from Sioux Falls who introduced himself to me by cramming his tongue down my throat – literally. I’m all for kissing, but this guy was just a tad too rough. He was nice, but he was hogging me a little too much. I finally pushed him away as when I looked over at Carrie she looked like she was shooting daggers into the back of his head with her eyes. I thought she was going to kick his ass. He was nice, I doubt it will go anywhere here, but you never know.

It was getting late and I knew I had to get up early so we booked it about 1AM. I was outside with Aaron waiting for Carrie to come out and Aaron asked if I had my hotel key and I said YES quite proudly. As I am looking at it I suddenly freaked out and said OHHHH MY GAWWWWD! Aarron asked what was the matter and I said I have absolutely NO idea what my hotel room number is. He asked if I was joking and laughing my ass off I said noooo. I told Carrie when she came out and she just cracked up. It wouldn’t be me if I didn’t forget something on a trip, but this is pretty big. I decided to figure out the logistics of finding my hotel room once we got back inside where it was warm.

We are buzzing along on the sidewalks when Carrie suddenly stops by one of those beautiful planters again and this time there is a guy laying in the bushes unable to get up by himself. I lock my brakes while Aaron and Justin help him up. They hold him up against the wall for a few minutes to make sure he can stand OK. I was sure this guy passed out in the same planter the previous drunk was puking in, but Justin assured me it was a different planter.

We got back to the hotel and there is no one at the front desk. GREAT! Aaron told me to call my dad, but I did not want to wake him and he said just call him. I call him, but no answer, his phone was on vibrate. We could have went across the street and asked the front desk there, but I don’t know who decided, but we just decided to go up every floor until we found my room. I remembered the room ended in 40 and the door had two peep holes. This was too hilarious for words.

Justin was the designated room checker and he would do it oh so sneakily and when it didn’t work he would book it down the hall and we all laughed and got in the elevator. For sure I thought we were going to get kicked out with how loud we were at 2 AM in the hallways. Aaron decided it was best we stay in the elevator from then on. At times the elevator would go down and Justin would start running before realizing that we had already checked that floor and we would yell for him to come back. This cracked us up more. We ran into a couple of teenagers on one floor and they invited us to church the next morning. At that point in time we probably looked like we could use a few prayers and what not. We finally found my room on the 11th floor! SUCCESS! I didn’t want to say goodbye, but Carrie and Justin had an hour drive at least and Aaron had to work in the morning. Either way we were all going to be pooped out on Sunday!

Thanks to my loves Carrie, Justin, and Aaron for one of the best times of my life!!! I can’t wait to come back!

Love Them!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lajon from Sevendust and me Nutty’s North 8-21-09

Words cannot express how much I love the guys in Sevendust. We have known each other for 12 years now and it gets better and better every time I see them. They are family. 

Sevendust has seen me at my sickest. I pushed myself to go to their shows even when I was even to weak to sit up in bed, but they always made me feel better. As Andy put it – when we do not see you for a while I get worried that something bad has happened. I like seeing em when I look like this as opposed to someone too sick to move to their music.

We met Andy’s wife and she was great. Andy told her that we are family and that we knew him before he was hired by Sevendust and he always looks forward to seeing us. That means a lot to us too. We love seeing them as much as they do us. These guys never disappoint and they truly are the big brothers I never had.

So READY for Football to Start!

Preseason is good, but NOT good enough. On Friday September 4th I am going to the Cowboys vs Vikings preseason game and pretty stoked about it  even though I know the starters will not be playing. I am hoping to meet a few players though. That is my primary reason for going. Then in October going down to Kansas City to MY Cowboys take on Carrie’s Chiefs. We are going to party it up that is for sure! 

My NFL catalog came in the mail yesterday and SOOOO many things I want in there and then today I went out to the mall to exchange some jeans and I go right by Pro Image — I need a new Cowboys air freshener for the truck and so I went in. I should not be allowed to go in that store because I always end up buying something Cowboys. I only ended up buying a window decal for the back window of Witten, but I so wanted the Demarcus Ware jersey that was on the wall! I am good with jerseys though — I will not buy a player jersey until they get an extended contract. For what jerseys cost I do not want to buy a jersey and they get traded to another team the next year. I am not worried about Ware not being signed — he is signed up through this year and I think Jerry knows to keep him around. I have nine other jerseys I can wear in the meantime. Even though I am good with jerseys — I must be stopped with all the other Cowboys merchandise I seem to think I need. 

I have a love/hate relationship with the new stadium. I loved Texas Stadium. Everything about it was just great. Now, I have not seen the new stadium in person, only in pictures. The pictures I have seen are absolutely gorgeous, but it is just not MY Texas Stadium. It is heart breaking to see the photos of what it looks like now. Just a run down stadium waiting for the big boom. How sad. 

I have to comment on the Godzilla like HDTV we have in the middle of the field. If I wanted to watch the game on TV I would just stay home. Sure the jumbo-tron is great for those in the nosebleed seats and it is neat and cool, but I do not think it is necessary. Now there are numerous talks about moving it up and who is going to pay for the cost of it. I hear it weighs a lot! Punters can hit it, but until the TV causes the outcome of a game — I think it is staying where it is. 

Of course I was not happy losing my front row end zone seats at MY beloved Texas Stadium, but a guy from the Cowboys board took a photo of one of the accessible sessions and it was high and I did not like it! Just a few days ago I saw some more photos from another member and though he was taking pictures of some eye candy — I saw a couple of wheelchairs on a flat cement area right next to the field and this cement area goes clear around the stadium including behind the players benches. I am so going once I save enough money for a ticket down there. 

I’ve been too busy with this last semester of school that I do not know where the Cowboys need improvement. I am hoping by September 13th they got their heads in the game for all 16 weeks to get into the playoffs and so on. 

I have signed up with too many Fantasy Football teams — last count I think it was five or six. None of which are money leagues so hopefully I can keep my win streak going. 

With all that said. GO COWBOYS!

8 Week Study

I was accepted to a brand new eight week study Sanford Outpatient Rehab is doing for those people in wheelchairs. I was one of five people picked out of a possible 40 candidates. I am honored that they picked me for this and I am looking forward to getting my butt kicked at the gym.

I am most looking forward to getting on the FES Bike that they were able to get grant money for and get myself standing again. I have been wanting to try this bike for years and unless I win the lottery I will not be getting one. They will also have a gliding stander so I think with all the moving I will be doing it will keep my very low blood pressure up.

I will be working out Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays up to three hours a day. Not all of it will be working out. There will be some good stretching sessions by Physical Therapists among other exercises to do.

The goal of this study is to see if Sioux Falls can benefit from an accessible gym and I think it can. They had forty people willing to be candidates for the study and that’s a fairly high number. That does not count the people who filled out the survey who think it is a good idea and for some reason chose not to be a guinea pig for eight weeks. That is a big commitment to agree to. It is perfect for me. It starts my last week of school.

I was worried on what I would be doing with my life after school was done. Ideas are still up in the air on where I am going, but this could not have come at a better time. I have eight weeks to simmer down from my college life, take a break, and just be me, but still make important decisions. I think on Tuesdays and Thursdays I will be hitting the Small Business Association, SCORE, etc. and start working on a new business plan for the club. I need to recrunch numbers since my business plan had numbers from the year 2000 when our economy was good. I am a little scared on starting it with so many important people telling me NO, but that just makes me want to do it more. I hate the hell holes we have in Sioux Falls for bands to play in. We would get so many other great bands if we had a decent place for them to play. 

I am super excited for this opportunity. It fell into my plans for some reason and I am glad it did. I will post updates on my progress in those eight weeks and/or any changes I see.

Mad at the World

I am generally a happy person, but the last few weeks have suuuuucked! 

I’m striking out in the men department, I don’t even know why I even get up to bat. Screw it. I’m done with them and their selfish and shallow ways. 

Being in a chair sucks, but I try to live life to the fullest in it, but there are times where I just want to scream and cry. I actually did do the crying part on July 24th at a David Cook concert no less because I was so pissed off I couldn’t see jack shit. Not even the big screens on the fucking ceiling. No one bothered to help find a more suitable spot to sit until 10 minutes before the show was over. Big fucking whoop-te-do now. I have been looking at everyone’s ass for the last fucking hour. Is it so much to ask for places to be ADA compliant in 2009! 

My best friend Steph is moving. Whether it’s this month or in a couple of months. Either way she is moving and soon. I’m happy and sad that she is leaving. She is my partner in crime, we do practically everything together and I am going to be lost without her. 

I want to move myself, but I have no idea where to go. If I open my own business whatever it may be then I am stuck here until I sell or entrust it to someone else to operate. If I just pick up and start over somewhere I have no idea what I would do. Dallas would be a dream and my first choice — the people are sweet and of course my Cowboys are there. 

I am in my last quarter of school and it should be a good time, but I am just bored in all my classes and not motivated to do the work at all. Some how I am pulling off A’s in all my work, but I really could care less about it. I have two projects to do and have not even started on them. I think I will be real busy the week of my birthday which is when all this is due. 

The one good thing coming up in this messed up world is football season is just over a month away. I cannot wait. Something to take my mind off of everything else. At least for one day of the week.